Admiring you

I wrote this on my diary, on July 19^th 2013..

Yes, this is about you..

Malam ini aku ingin menulis tentang dirimu, ya tentang kamu yang telah lama menjadi inspirasiku..

Kamu mungkin mengira bahwa dirimu tak penting bagiku.. Hm, kau salah.

Sejak awal aku kenal denganmu, kamu sudah punya arti.

Kamu inspirasiku, kamu lah dengan kecintaan mu terhadap alam telah menghipnotisku..

Kamu dengan kekerasan kepalamu, kamu dengan permainan gitarmu yang cemerlang, kamu dengan pengalaman dan perjalananmu yang membuatku iri..

Maaf, aku tak bermaksud tak acuh, aku tak bermaksud tak menghargaimu, hanya saja… Aku tak ingin jatuh cinta dan ada yang mencintaiku… Hanya saja aku tak pantas untuk dicintai, sungguh, kau belum mengenalku dan saat aku membiarkanmu mengenalku lebih dekat seutuhnya, disaat itu lah aku telah mencintaimu, atau membiarkan cinta itu tubuh..

Tapi sungguh, bulan pun tau siapa yang aku ingat saat aku melihatnya, matahari pun tau siapa yang ingin aku tunjukan ketika ku melihatnya saat dia terbit dari timur..

Sungguh kau itu sangat bermakna, hanya saja aku tak tau mau memaknaimu apa.. Harus memaknaimu itu sebagai apa di hidupku ini..

Kau selalu menemukanku di saat aku tersesat, kau selalu mengatakan hal yang tidak ingin aku dengar, kamu dengan segala tentangmu selalu menarik perhatianku..

What I learned in life is....

What I learned in life is,

That no matter how good a person is,
sometimes they can hurt you & because of this we must forgive.

It takes years to build trust and only seconds to destroy it ..
We don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change..

The circumstances and the environment influence on our lives,
but we are the one who responsible for ourselves..

That you have to control your acts or they will control you..

That patience requires much practice.. that there are people who love us,
but simply don’t know how to show it..

That sometimes the person you think will hurt you and make you fall..
Is instead one of the few who will help you to get up..

You should never tell a child that dreams are fake, it would be a tragedy if they knew..

It’s not always enough to be forgiven by someone,
in most cases you have to forgive yourself first..

That no matter in how many pieces your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop to fix it ..

May be God wants us to meet all the wrong people first before meeting the right one..
So when we finally meet the right one we are grateful for that gift ..

When the door of happiness closes, another door opens..
but often we look so long at the closed one.. we don’t see what was open for us ..

The best kind of a friend is the kind in which you can sit on a porch and walk…
Without saying a word & when you leave it feels it was the best conversation you ever had.

It’s true we don’t know what we have until we find it, but its also true,
we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives..

It only takes a minute to offend someone, an hour to like someone,
a day to love someone, but it takes a life time to forget someone.

Don’t look for appearances, they can be deceiving, don’t go for wealth even that can fade,
Find someone who makes you smile, because it only takes a smile to make a day better,
find what makes your heart smile..

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much..
that you wish you can take them out of your dream and hug them for real..

Dream what you want, go wherever you want to go.. because you have only one life..
and one change to do the things you want to do ..

The happiest people don’t necessarily have the best of everything,
they just make the best of everything that comes their way.

The best future is based on the forgotten past..

You can’t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

take from : http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2013/05/09/what-i-learned-in-life-is/

Dulu dan Kini

Aku kini,
Sedang melihat balik dengan memunggungkan masa kini
itu lah yang harus aku lakukan sekarang
karena memunggungkan masa depan, adalah apa yang harus aku lakukan untuk menata semuanya
Aku perlu membetulkan sesuatu hal, agar aku dapat melangkah tanpa terus terseok-seok

Aku butuh bantuan, sendirian tak lagi begitu menguatkan..
Ku perlu mencari sosok yang bisa membantuku berdiri tegak ketika leherku sudah terlalu lelah menengok ke belakang
Tanpa bertanya dan tanpa menghakimi, karena ku tak perlu tuhan lainnya tuk memberi tahuku apa yang boleh apa yang tidak, aku sudah punya Tuhan yang berkuasa akan itu.
Aku butuh itu, sungguh, bukannya tak ingin melangkah ke depan, namun hal ini harus ku benahi

Ku perlu sosok yang mau berdiri di sampingku, menapaki jalan rerumputan bertelanjang kaki tanpa takut terluka oleh pecahan kaca
Aku menenlajangi kakiku dengan waras, tau bahwa ada tebaran pecahan kaca di sana
Karena aku butuh rasa sakit itu, tuk terus melatih kerapuhan ini, agar dia tak terus manja

Rayuan nestapa tuk melupakan,
sebesar nafsu itu tuk terus bekelakar tentang kehebatannya
haruskah dia hidup dalam dekapan hiruk pikuk kepedihan jika ada senja di awal malam?
karena aku gundah dihujani terus dengan gemericik caci makimu

hiruplah nafas itu, mengembun di cuaca dingin
hangatkan lah dia dengan sentuhan cinta dari sang Kuasa
terjanglah dengan bikan merdu di sepertiga malam terakhir
usapkan wajah dengan penuh kerendahan hati

Aku berpikir lagi dan lagi..
katanya manusia lah yang dipilih oleh takdir
katanya kecenderungan manusia adalah mengalir seperti air
katanya keadaan manusia adalah selalu direngkuh oleh keresahan
katanya kita ini akan selalu di ombang-ambing oleh keraguan

Entah mengapa, aku kadang merasa takut..
kerapuhan ini begitu melekat hingga ke dasar relung diriku yang sebenarnya
sedari awal, sedari dulu..
begitu rapuh tuh dapat dihentak oleh sesuatu yang tiba-tiba menyentak

Aku berpegang pada apa yang aku yakini,
di akhir rutinitas sembahyangku
aku selalu menyempatkan diri tuk meminta
meminta kerendahan hati Tuhan
Agar Dia berkenan tuk memberikanku secuil dari kekuatannya
Kepadaku... dan orang-orang yang ingin ku rengkuh dalam kehidupanku

Method to face the problem attack

Use these steps to face you problem, especially a new problem that you have never met before.
Try it over and over again, learn it, make it as your state of mind.

First, Know what your problem is and define it clearly

Second, Consider everything you know about the problem. There are many things you must learn that are related to your problem

Third, Start with an open mind, no matter what you have known before

Fourth, Make the best guess you can, using all the information you can find

Fifth, Test your best guess by observation or experiment

Sixth, Record your observations and the results of your experiments accurately

Seventh, From these observations and experiments, state your own conclusion or answer to your problem

And last, try to apply your conclusion to other things that happen about you. It may help you to understand these things better.


Ok, do you got it all?
Want to try it? :)
Good Luck! 

Hari ini aku berumur 19 tahun

I post some pictures of todaaay....
Untuk tulisannya nyusul aja yaaah, I'm planning to write so many things about my nineteen birthday.
But because I'm already too tired to write, so next time, I promise to my self, I'll write it all.
Also for a reminder to me, that I'm feeling so blessed.
Surrounding by so many great people. Family, partner, and friends.
Thank you very much for all the good prayers from all of you. I wish Allah answer all of it. For you and also for me.

 My friend said, "Before you blow the candles, you should make some wishes!"

And then, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath..

I wish for nothing at that moment, the only thing I said on my mind was "I wish for nothing, Ya Allah Ya Rahman, Instead of asking few things from you again, I just wanna say Thank you very much for every second that you've already gave to me, Thank you very much for giving me many adorable and caring people in my circle of life."

His writting

Pada sutau ketika, yang biasa kita namai senja,
Kita berbicara tanpa suara,
Saat surya hampir mencium ujung dunia,
Namun aku merasa,
Betapa sunyi yang menjalari kita menyimpan rerimbun kata


Kita adalah jiwa-jiwa yang berserakan,
Lalu dipungut oleh takdir yang bukan kebetulan,
Takdir yang lahir dari serpihan masa lalu,
Mungkin pula takdir yang lahir untuk hari-hari baru

Ah.. Biarlah takdir dan nasib sibuk berdongeng tentang akhir cerita,
Sedang kita sibuk merubah-rubah alur cerita,
Toh kita tak pernah perduli,
Sebab kita punya mimipi-mimpi,
Yang bahkan membuat nasib iri

Sayangku,
Terima kasih selalu bersamaku,
walau aku dengan senyum di balik peluh-peluh,
Aku dengan keringat di balik kemeja abu-abu,
Aku yang bahkan tak punya banyak waktu untuk aku

Sayangku, Genggamlah tanganku,
Aku akan berkelana terus,
Mencicipi kerak-kerak semesta,
Hingga kelak, Aku bisa memperkenalkamu, Dunia.

Selamat Ulang Tahun Zaneta Descara,

Bojonegoro, 2-Desember-2013

Ade Setio Nugroho

Valedictorian Speaks Out Against Schooling in Graduation Speech by Erica Goldson

Valedictorian Speaks Out Against Schooling in Graduation Speech
 by Erica Goldson

Here I stand
There is a story of a young, but earnest Zen student who approached his teacher, and asked the Master, “If I work very hard and diligently, how long will it take for me to find Zen? The Master thought about this, then replied, “Ten years.” The student then said, “But what if I work very, very hard and really apply myself to learn fast – How long then?” Replied the Master, “Well, twenty years.” “But, if I really, really work at it, how long then?” asked the student. “Thirty years,” replied the Master. “But, I do not understand,” said the disappointed student. “At each time that I say I will work harder, you say it will take me longer. Why do you say that?” Replied the Master, “When you have one eye on the goal, you only have one eye on the path.”

This is the dilemma I’ve faced within the American education system. We are so focused on a goal, whether it be passing a test, or graduating as first in the class. However, in this way, we do not really learn. We do whatever it takes to achieve our original objective.
Some of you may be thinking, “Well, if you pass a test, or become valedictorian, didn’t you learn something? Well, yes, you learned something, but not all that you could have. Perhaps, you only learned how to memorize names, places, and dates to later on forget in order to clear your mind for the next test. School is not all that it can be. Right now, it is a place for most people to determine that their goal is to get out as soon as possible.
I am now accomplishing that goal. I am graduating. I should look at this as a positive experience, especially being at the top of my class. However, in retrospect, I cannot say that I am any more intelligent than my peers. I can attest that I am only the best at doing what I am told and working the system. Yet, here I stand, and I am supposed to be proud that I have completed this period of indoctrination. I will leave in the fall to go on to the next phase expected of me, in order to receive a paper document that certifies that I am capable of work. But I contend that I am a human being, a thinker, an adventurer – not a worker. A worker is someone who is trapped within repetition – a slave of the system set up before him. But now, I have successfully shown that I was the best slave. I did what I was told to the extreme. While others sat in class and doodled to later become great artists, I sat in class to take notes and become a great test-taker. While others would come to class without their homework done because they were reading about an interest of theirs, I never missed an assignment. While others were creating music and writing lyrics, I decided to do extra credit, even though I never needed it. So, I wonder, why did I even want this position? Sure, I earned it, but what will come of it? When I leave educational institutionalism, will I be successful or forever lost? I have no clue about what I want to do with my life; I have no interests because I saw every subject of study as work, and I excelled at every subject just for the purpose of excelling, not learning. And quite frankly, now I’m scared.

John Taylor Gatto, a retired school teacher and activist critical of compulsory schooling, asserts, “We could encourage the best qualities of youthfulness – curiosity, adventure, resilience, the capacity for surprising insight simply by being more flexible about time, texts, and tests, by introducing kids into truly competent adults, and by giving each student what autonomy he or she needs in order to take a risk every now and then. But we don’t do that.” Between these cinderblock walls, we are all expected to be the same. We are trained to ace every standardized test, and those who deviate and see light through a different lens are worthless to the scheme of public education, and therefore viewed with contempt.

H. L. Mencken wrote in The American Mercury for April 1924 that the aim of public education is not “to fill the young of the species with knowledge and awaken their intelligence. … Nothing could be further from the truth. The aim … is simply to reduce as many individuals as possible to the same safe level, to breed and train a standardized citizenry, to put down dissent and originality. That is its aim in the United States.”
To illustrate this idea, doesn’t it perturb you to learn about the idea of “critical thinking?” Is there really such a thing as “uncritically thinking?” To think is to process information in order to form an opinion. But if we are not critical when processing this information, are we really thinking? Or are we mindlessly accepting other opinions as truth?

This was happening to me, and if it wasn’t for the rare occurrence of an avant-garde tenth grade English teacher, Donna Bryan, who allowed me to open my mind and ask questions before accepting textbook doctrine, I would have been doomed. I am now enlightened, but my mind still feels disabled. I must retrain myself and constantly remember how insane this ostensibly sane place really is.

And now here I am in a world guided by fear, a world suppressing the uniqueness that lies inside each of us, a world where we can either acquiesce to the inhuman nonsense of corporatism and materialism or insist on change. We are not enlivened by an educational system that clandestinely sets us up for jobs that could be automated, for work that need not be done, for enslavement without fervency for meaningful achievement. We have no choices in life when money is our motivational force. Our motivational force ought to be passion, but this is lost from the moment we step into a system that trains us, rather than inspires us.
We are more than robotic bookshelves, conditioned to blurt out facts we were taught in school. We are all very special, every human on this planet is so special, so aren’t we all deserving of something better, of using our minds for innovation, rather than memorization, for creativity, rather than futile activity, for rumination rather than stagnation? We are not here to get a degree, to then get a job, so we can consume industry-approved placation after placation. There is more, and more still.

The saddest part is that the majority of students don’t have the opportunity to reflect as I did. The majority of students are put through the same brainwashing techniques in order to create a complacent labor force working in the interests of large corporations and secretive government, and worst of all, they are completely unaware of it. I will never be able to turn back these 18 years. I can’t run away to another country with an education system meant to enlighten rather than condition. This part of my life is over, and I want to make sure that no other child will have his or her potential suppressed by powers meant to exploit and control. We are human beings. We are thinkers, dreamers, explorers, artists, writers, engineers. We are anything we want to be – but only if we have an educational system that supports us rather than holds us down. A tree can grow, but only if its roots are given a healthy foundation.

For those of you out there that must continue to sit in desks and yield to the authoritarian ideologies of instructors, do not be disheartened. You still have the opportunity to stand up, ask questions, be critical, and create your own perspective. Demand a setting that will provide you with intellectual capabilities that allow you to expand your mind instead of directing it. Demand that you be interested in class. Demand that the excuse, “You have to learn this for the test” is not good enough for you. Education is an excellent tool, if used properly, but focus more on learning rather than getting good grades.

For those of you that work within the system that I am condemning, I do not mean to insult; I intend to motivate. You have the power to change the incompetencies of this system. I know that you did not become a teacher or administrator to see your students bored. You cannot accept the authority of the governing bodies that tell you what to teach, how to teach it, and that you will be punished if you do not comply. Our potential is at stake.

For those of you that are now leaving this establishment, I say, do not forget what went on in these classrooms. Do not abandon those that come after you. We are the new future and we are not going to let tradition stand. We will break down the walls of corruption to let a garden of knowledge grow throughout America. Once educated properly, we will have the power to do anything, and best of all, we will only use that power for good, for we will be cultivated and wise. We will not accept anything at face value. We will ask questions, and we will demand truth.

So, here I stand. I am not standing here as valedictorian by myself. I was molded by my environment, by all of my peers who are sitting here watching me. I couldn’t have accomplished this without all of you. It was all of you who truly made me the person I am today. It was all of you who were my competition, yet my backbone. In that way, we are all valedictorians.

I am now supposed to say farewell to this institution, those who maintain it, and those who stand with me and behind me, but I hope this farewell is more of a “see you later” when we are all working together to rear a pedagogic movement. But first, let’s go get those pieces of paper that tell us that we’re smart enough to do so!